Happily Homeschooling
Whether you are new to homeschooling or have reached the lifetime achievement award for homeschooling, testing is probably one of those worry provoking subjects. I know it is for me. Though the scores always seem to come out fine, I still get a little nervous when it's time for the yearly testing to occur. I think the biggest reason is that I want my children to have not only learned throughout the year, but have mastered every subject, leaving no room for arguments from the opposing side (ie: the school district, those against homeschooling). I know this is not a reasonable expectation, and I'm pretty sure I don't reflect this attitude towards my children, but I am sure that I probably am a little more tense and that they can tell. That said, I also know that it's not about what anyone else thinks, because I believe this is God's Will for us.

However, even though I've been teaching at home for more than 10 years, I still sometimes find myself doubting the job that I've done. I know that being at home is where my kids belong, and I know that The Lord wants us to homeschool, but I also know that the world is out there, staring at each and every one of us: waiting for the mess up to happen; watching for our children to fail on some level.

Why do I think like this, you  might ask. Maybe because of the different questions that I've had over the years from various people. Or maybe just concern that my kids are learning what they need to be. I am sure that Satan has his hand in the mix; trying to add to my worry. For the Lord says: 

"Be sober, be vigilant;
because your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion,
seeking whom he may devour.
Resist him, steadfast in the faith…"
1 Peter 5:8-9

Satan wants us to feel less than God has made us to be. To worry about things that are out of our control so that we will try and pull that control from The Lord, only giving Satan more control. I have learned that allowing The Lord to have full control of all things, really does make them go smoother. The situation may still not be easy, but I always will have the peace that The Lord graces me with. 

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication,
with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God;
and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding,
will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
Philippians 4: 6-7

Know that The Lord is with you, ALWAYS. And will give peace to those that know Him. "Don't worry for tomorrow", He alone knows what it will bring. 

So back to testing and the worry or concern I talked about. Testing can be burdensome, and stressful, and tense; but remember that The Lord is always with you and your children. Trust Him that He gave you the skills to teach your children and gave your children the ability to learn. Perfection may not be there (nothing is perfect except the love of The Lord & Jesus Christ), but learning is a process so don't try to rush it. Enjoy the ride, enjoy being home with your kids, let them enjoy being home, and He will be with you..

Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God,
that He may exalt you in due time, casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you
1 Peter 5:6-7

God loves each of us. If you trust Him as your Lord and Saviour, He will be with you and give you rest.

Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart,
and you will find rest for your souls.
For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.
Matthew 11: 28-30

If you are preparing for annual testing, and are feeling the anxiety that comes along with it, remember these verses. The Lord gave them to us for comfort for He knows what we are faced with at all times. 

Take care and relax...God knew who your children were going to have for a mom & dad. He also knows that they (and you) are right where He wants you to be, at home, teaching all that they need to learn.


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